When God says…
"…. I miss you…" I say "I know…" and I walk away. When I need Him He's there… but somehow He doesn't seem important... how conceited I am.
I wake up exhausted and cry out, "I can't make it through today alone…" He says, "I know I'll be right by your side…" I get up and forget… No longer do I need Him…. Or so I think…
"Do you even miss Me?" He asks, even though He already knows. "Of course not," I say, "…because I know your there… Why would I miss You?" But He knows… He knows that I don't truly see...
When my temper gets the better of me… He knows. When I cry because I don't understand why…. He knows. When I lose the passion I had that morning and I think He has abandoned me… He knows, because He is still beside me…
"I miss you…" He says it louder, through another persons words this time… I try a little giving in and replying, "I'll try…" one early morning with just Him… It is a peaceful day… until I stay up too late and when five-thirty arrives I hit the snooze button saying, "We'll talk later…" Once again I put Him on hold…
This goes on for many day's the snooze button is used too often, it should be worn out by now… I feel tired even though I slept nine hours… I can't handle the day…. Even though I have so much energy… It's just too much… I try again…
"Your back…" He says… "I know" I say… It works for a little longer, I sing during odd moments… I pray… then I reach for the snooze button again… once again God is put on hold…
"I miss you!" This time He is sending it to me through a cryptic message… My attitude… and I realize He is saying "You miss ME…" I reach for the snooze button, out of habit my head goes back under the covers and God gives me a nudge… I hold the pillow over my face and God presses on my heart… I here the voice of my sister and rise from my bed… leaving Him… "Your still on hold…" I say…
My To Do list get's longer and longer… I check my email and plan photo shoots… I am worried I'll miss out on an opportunity and throw myself into setting something up rather then missing out… The hold button flashes… "Just a few more days…." I say and hit the hold button again…
I talk with friends and my parents telling them my troubles… Why I am upset, I chock it up to life… They offer to pray for me and I am grateful… but I don't try…
The hold button blinks at me… the voice is muted, not because it has stopped but because I have pushed it away… It still speaks I just don't hear…
The hold button flashes now… I open His story... and I choke out the words " I missed YOU…" He replies, "I know… and I missed you…"
